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Thespurgin

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Okay so it has been a long time, but I am back. Sorry to all my watchers who have been dutifully and loyally awaiting any activity at all from me, but let's hope I get a chance to change that eh?

For the time being, I won't be drawing or shopping anything. Aviary deactivated, so my standard shopping tools are gone and my artistic skills on paper have never been noteworthy.

Therefore, I will instead be posting mainly reiterations of the profiles, settings, and concepts I've  developed in the course of my worldbuilding and writing. Yes, before you ask, this includes codices for Apathosis races I spoke of in my previous Journal Entry, and hopefully much more to come.


On a much more personal and important note, I would like to take a moment to remember a dear friend of mine, :iconkennedyelizabeth:. I met her about four, maybe five years ago now, and she was always an innocent, joyous bundle of life. She put her heart into everything she did, and did that all while battling the Big C. In spite of that, I only learned of her illness myself after at least two years of our friendship, because she didn't want to burden me or her other friends. She'd fought cancer for much of the time I'd known her, since meeting her in a random RP chatroom, and still managed to make friends and live a semi-normal life... a true inspiration to me, and I'm sure she would be to anyone that ever had the pleasure of making her acquaintance.

I wish I had happier news at the core of this, but I'm afraid that this is nothing less than a Memento Mori. On December 26th, 2012, Kennedy Elizabeth passed away at the age of 16, after three and a half years of battle against a rare form of bone cancer. I was unfortunate enough to learn of this until some time last month, but in hindsight... I take that not as a shame, but as a last gift from her. Even in dying on my birthday, she managed to leave me a memory. Now, whenever I blow out the candles of my birthday cake, I will remember her, and thank the lord I had the honor of knowing her.

I once said I wish I could have taken her place. That I could have contracted cancer and she gone free. I still wish that, in a sense. However, recently I've come to realize that had she never caught cancer, our friendship might never have truly grown into the chain it was, and she might never have touched as many people as she did in her bravery against such an insidious disease. Now, I have finally come to terms with my own feelings enough to write this, and say that I have accepted it. I know she's in a better place. What's more, I am humbled in that before she disappeared, she herself said that I helped stay true in her faith even in the face of her illness.

Would that I had the words to express my last gift to her in words, but I have not felt poetry in my soul since before I learned she'd passed. Instead, I will simply offer a single animated music video, and close with but a few words.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=dxmfjZ…

Rest in Piece Kennedy Elizabeth, and know that up in heaven, I know you're finally at peace. May I see you again when my own time comes, and may I have have done even half of the good you did to the world.

Goodbye my friend. Three years was not enough to tell you how much I cared about you, so I'll save those words for our next meeting.
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Okay, I know I've been a bit distant and inconsistent with these journals, but I haven't really had anything to upload. I've been busy elsewhere.

That being said, I've realized that it's about time I got a bit more productive... so I'm going to make a proposition to my watchers. If I can get either another 3 watchers (from the time of this entry) or 10 comments on my deviations (not this journal. I am hoping for conversation and feedback. How can I get better if I'm not getting any feed?) I will start making a series of codex journals related to that big worldbuilding project I've been talking about. For now, I've only got species, but that's a start.

Also, I am in need of prayer, if you do pray. Not for me, but for a friend of mine that really needs it. Pray for healing, and pray for peace. If you feel particularly gusty, pray we can meet at least once in real life before... well... I shouldn't say without her permission.

There's some other little snippets of info regarding my personal life to note as well.
I am currently starting a graveyard shift job on the monday following this post, I have learned that I appear to have a minor bipolar disorder, and have been spending far to much time reading and writing fanfiction offsite.
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I'm Still Here

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Yep. Surprised? If you're wondering why I haven't posted more than a single poem since my last journal entry it's because I found a fanfic site and took up a personal challenge of reading 1 mil words a week. That and school has kept me busy.

On the other hand, that extended break has helped by giving me some of my old spirit back... if only a bit, so I'm still dabbling in my myriad projects.

One such project is a fan-expansion of the old Chaotic TCG, from the series of the same name. I know 4kids never continued it, but I liked it and I never got a chance to buy my own set of cards, so I figured "screw this I'll play with it and make my own cards!"

Here's the prototypes as of yet.

Shadow Chaotic Card Prototype by Thespurgin Sonic the Hedgehog Prototype by Thespurgin

In addition to that little project, I am working on Apathosis again, for those of you that know it. A worldbuilding project for the original stories of mine. It's far from done, but you're welcome to look if you want the link.

That's all for now. Cheerio.
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Random Update

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So yeah, I haven't updated my journals in like two months. So what? It's not like anyone reads these things anyway.

I can kinda tell that I've truly become a small fish in a big pond, and that my stuff is unimportant and no one takes much interest in it. Why would my puny gallery be even worth a glance? I'm not some one-hit wonder or idiot savant when it comes to art by any means.

I was considering posting my mediocre drawings from the college art class I have been taking this quarter, but it would take some considerable effort to scanner some of them in, and they aren't anything special. So for the time being, I'll hold back on them. If anyone actually cares enough to desire otherwise, tell me and I may reconsider.
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So I was thinking "Wow my journal is out of date" but I haven't had much to say right now, and my relative lack of new deviations to post doesn't help.

So, in lieu of another emotionally searing vent article, I think I will instead give a bit of a hint about my current projects and answer any questions you may have. If you're wondering where this idea came from, thank/blame
:iconbasata-sama:, who's has been in contact with me via notes and has been a great help in nailing down some plot issues with the story I will be writing upon the completion of the world/setting's dedicated wiki, Apathosis.

I'm working on other projects as well, like trying to get a few sound bites recorded for a vocal part in a trailer for a friend's project (I won't say whom... well not yet) and prepare for the coming college quarter.

That's all for now. If you have any thoughts or questions at all, fire away.
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